i am of the same mind as you. i think latula’s guilt and self-doubt are because she’s insecure with how she appears to EVERYBODY. not just boys—trolls don’t have a concept of heterosexuality, for one thing, so she’d almost certainly be just as self-conscious around Meulin or Porrim as she is around Kankri or any other dude, except maybe Mituna.
she’s the knight of mind, but maybe she can’t see herself clearly. maybe she thinks she’s nothing compared to others and so she tries too hard. maybe she’s crippled by self doubt when she isn’t playing a role. sgrub might have given her the Mind aspect to encourage her to overcome that, but their session failed and she got stuck.
the fandom kind of ignores other reasons for her act a lot of the time, and i think it springs from that dumb het romance trope where a girl is only half a person until the right boy comes along to make her love herself (because the boy loves her). why do people bother to write a young woman’s story if they’re just gonna make the whole thing revolve around the guy? and latula gives every indication of being totally content with mituna. at no point does she ever indicate unrest or romantic interest in any other person. she’s outright awkward about kankri’s bungled flirting attempt. but if she’s so happy, why does she still pretend to be someone she isn’t? “oh, must be the wrong boy!” is the hollywood answer. that’s weak. women have problems that aren’t about around men. trolls have problems that aren’t about quadrants. i want to encourage those stories.
Now I’m starting to wonder if that’s a knight trait. Doing a bunch of fronting with a carefully cultivated persona because you aren’t comfortable or in touch with yourself as an actual person. See also: Nubs McShoutsalot and Ironicallycool Coolirony kid.
100% my belief. it’s too perfect to not have been planned this way. i want to hug them all.
knights oughtta drop all that armor, the weight is getting in the way of fighting the good fight