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bluh, unstable light >< feels like impending blackout
My name is Robert Blaker, best known as a soundtrack musician for Homestuck (behind such works as Upward Movement and Tomb of the Ancestors), along with a myriad of other nicknames. In an effort to move forward with my music, I’ve compiled my entire discography of released and unreleased works from the past 3 years, and I’m releasing it for free!
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Anonymous asked: Wait, do you write the UFUT universe? That is basically my favorite fanfiction ever. I've read it multiple times. It's so cute how you write them, y'know... If it's you. Also, if there's more. I can't wait to see it.
nononono! UFUT is property of ceruleancynic! I just compiled the story in a PDF file because AO3’s downloadable formats were ugly and offended my sense of design. But as I said in that post, the characters are too small for comfortable reading in a kindle (and presumably other e-readers). I might make a kindle-sized file, is all.
Anonymous asked: That brings up a good question, what was Meenah's lusus? Scratch provided the one for Condy/Feferi but what about Meenah? Or was Beforus Feferi just tasked with looking after all the other Tyrians too?
I think it was Condy’s new horrorterror. The current one, that she got from Lord English, and which kept pooping her cloning experiments.
I think Condy’ll get to run away into another, newly created universe, and rebuild as planned with her new monster’s blessing and aid. But this universe will paradoxically turn out to be the troll’s original one, and the planet she colonizes will eventually be Beforus. That’s why the Beforan crew has shit like Fiduspawn. Fiduspawn involves a face-hugger jizzing into an adorable-looking plushie’s mouth, and monsters ripping their way out of this plushie then eating its remains. It does not fit a peaceful society. It wouldn’t be marketed as a children’s game in such a society. But it might stick around in a society that’s still sort of figuring out how to better raise and care for their own young.
Condy will eventually be deposed by Feferi, who Redefines Culling, and before going down she’ll glance at the leader of the rebellion, spot nubby horns and scarlet eyes, and curse mightly and profoundly as understanding dawns on her of how thoroughly she was played and how, in the end, she never did escape LE’s service after all.
He’s still under the illusion of control, isn’t he? Just parsed in ego stroking social justice.
Oh yes. Just like how Rose was under the illusion that getting wasted would give her insight into the alcoholic mother she failed to connect with, and just how Terezi was under the illusion that her miserable relationship with Gamzee and her loss of the connections that made her feel cherished and happy — her blindness, Dave, Karkat — were fate’s due and deserved punishment for being the implement of Vriska’s demise, rather than self-inflicted guilt-induced misery. They are equally compulsive, destructive and self-defeating feedback-looping coping mechanisms based on a faulty premise.
Since Current Kankri’s thing is softening his words until they lose all meaning, Baby Seer Kankri must have been very good with them— guiding his companions into actions he deemed constructive by surgical application of words. Why, he might have been a master of the Pointed Question, or the Innocent Comment, casually leaving a major impact in his wake, secure in the knowledge that this impact would push the target into the right path, or at least out of danger. And being so good at it, he may have grown reckless.
Until Something happened. Something he may have accidentally put in motion with a careless word. He might not even have meant it to be a Word, just a word. Just an innocent and perhaps quite sincere comment in the wrong place at the wrong time. It triggered something. The impact left a crater behind, and perhaps had a body count. The power of his words backfired, and he grew wary.
He not only ceased to abuse words, but actively sought to diminish their frightening power, to let others know to brace themselves before impact, to therefore avoid friendly fire. And this approach seemed to work; no one went on a murder spree after talking to him. Mostly because no one could be arsed to stick around so long and sift through so many qualifiers. But he’s totally in control of them! Tight-fisted, tyrannical control.
In other words, when he starts listing trigger warnings and buzzwords, what he’s actually doing is screaming FLY YOU FOOLS! DUCK FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! before passing some gas. Not even the really smelly kind, but the one that goes fssss, smells a little funny and warm for two seconds, and then disperses harmlessly. But what if someone smells it and chokes to death? That is a risk he simply can’t take.
Yeah. I like this.
Kankri is obviously smart. People don’t get like he is overnight, and they’re not born that way, either. There was some point when he decided that he had to learn, obey, and enforce all the rules, and thereby never be wrong again. (Wrong as in losing an argument, wrong as in losing face, wrong as in factually mistaken, wrong as in saying something morally reprehensible? Yes, all of those. Never ever ever. Except that in trying to cover all his bases and his own ass… and everyone else’s asses, too… at the same time- he ends up doing all those things anyway.)
He literally cannot interact with someone without adding a passive-aggressive backhand. Everything he says is underscored with terror and rage, while at the same time meticulously designed such that terror and rage (his own, and other peoples’) come to nothing.
Same time, it’s generally more of a slow slide than something set off by a single traumatic event, so he was likely at least partway there to begin with… and since the world had already ended, if we’re assuming it’s something that happened in-game, it makes me wonder where he found his echo-chamber… at some point something had to have reinforced the behavior, which makes me wonder if there were times when their team really did need a referee… which would make sense, given that Beforus didn’t have the violently enforced militaristic hierarchy of Alternia. Even if there was lot of lip service being paid to us All Being Equals Here, the team was still very obviously stratified by class and caste. Shit’s a lot less complicated when the rules boil down to “Do what I say or you die.” Looking at what’s going on there, though, makes me think that at some point Kankri was at some point at least marginally effective to their team as a moderator.
Not the case now, though. I don’t really get behind the headcanon that says Kankri never actually cared about anyone else- there is obviously a hell of a lot of ego there, and his behavior’s toxic and controlling as fuck, but given his topics of fixation I still think that shell might have grown up around some seed of actually-giving-a-shit. … Which is probably why I like this post. It’s attributing Reasons Why Kankri, and I still want to like the wordy little twerp.
Which is why I prefer to imagine him less as someone driven only by his own ego (still a huge motivator though! compounded with a massive fear of failure, set to simmer post-death with an infinite number of alternate-timeline clones) and more a case of him following his own set of hard-and-fast rules straight up his own ass. Cronus in particular seems to have figured out exactly how to work the rhetoric to get Kankri on his side. (… fits in with the Bard thing? Playing people like instruments. Not sure where we’ve seen that with Gamzee, though… no wait, Terezi. … who is also a Seer. Aaahaaha connectionsplode!)
As for what he might have said, I’m not sure, but to whom?… Damara. Meenah- dangerous as she is- just seems to roll with it when people talk shit… albeit violently, that’s just how she rolls… Kurloz seemed to still be an unknown quantity as of the walkaround. But everyone’s wary of Damara. She has blast-crater written all over her. Hugely powerful, volatile, obviously in massive amounts of pain, which she is very generous about sharing with the rest of the group… in actions, not in words, because she either can’t, or won’t, communicate in a way that most of the team can understand… a circumstance which doubtless stuck right the hell up Kankri’s craw. … Her nihilism, her destructiveness… it was made clear that she wasn’t always that way, or at least, they didn’t know about it until too late. … do we ever get to see her lusus? Put that next to the substance use… I think that might make her their session’s Gamzee. (Up to and including being at least instrumental in the decapitation of a Nitram.)
Scenario: Kankri got coddle-culled. Damara didn’t. When Damara goes off the edge (because no one was watching her well enough to see how bad things were getting, though possibly catalyzed by something Kankri says) Kankri self-importantly attributes the whole thing to the fact that he forgot to check his privilege.
There’s a lot here worth reading, and I don’t really have anything else to add re: Kankri. But about your comments on Gamzee and Cronus… I don’t think bards are manipulative, rather than easily manipulated themselves. Though manipulated may be the wrong word here. Rather… they’re a piece easily deployed on the board. Only when you deploy one there’s no way to predict what effect they’ll have. Cronus doesn’t exactly mean to manipulate Kankri for a specific end. I always interpreted that moment as him approaching a moment of self-awareness and Kankri’s good intentions poking that bubble before it left the straw and being left with the impression of success. So though his effect at that moment was reinforcing Kankri’s toxic bullshit, he was completely unaware of it from beginning to end.
As for Gamzee himself… I don’t think he’s been fully there for a long time, and what’s currently there may not be him at all. We saw a couple panels of the real him for the whole of act 6, and that was it. Whatever Terezi had been hate-dating…. *shudder*
xanthe-pyros asked: wiiiiill you ever continue the "I call upon the spirit of my ancestor!" AU?? *She asks as she rolls around your blog, begging for more with her hands* God it seems too much of a fantastic idea!! I fully support it and would love seeing more of it!!
i donnoooo i might come up with scenes and stuff but i already have two other long fics to deal with???? THE ANSWER IS A BIG MAYBE